
You know those times....when you have a million and one thoughts running through your mind....all speeding at 100 mph.....if you don't...let me paint a picture
50, 3 year olds....telling you their entire life story....at the same time......yeah.....exactly.....
Maybe having a not so productive, overly exciting week....sans a 2mm weapon of mass destruction making it's way through my body.....has turned my mental self into overload....
"like...hello.....you've been like totally neglecting us"
What is a girl to do.....even my ever present sidekick...who listens to my endless chatter....has thrown in the towel....and is currently snuggled with meow meow....dreaming of chicken nuggets...the neighbors koi pond....and hitting dogs with plastic golf clubs.....
it's these times of day.....when Pooh's asleep.....the sun begins to slip behind Mrs. Pong's house....and I'm alone.....when the noise becomes louder....
and I realize just how much I miss Juice....and his calming influence....
I sometimes think....my chaotic state stems from me trying to be everything to everyone while he's gone....that I can handle it.....When he's home....I don't worry.....I allow myself to just be me....my dorky, forgetful, go with the flow....calm self.....
You know they say....(really who are they?.....) that God gives you what you need, when you need it....
I sat down tonight....after a long day of trying to have a successful yard sale....unsuccessfully....and the mindless chatter whirring away.....and the sound of one overweight border collie snoring under my chair.
I logged into my email....and recieved the one thing I needed so very badly......
Hey baby. I just tried to call you but no luck. Were about to head out so I will try and call you when we get back. The min. should reset. Im sorry I couldnt call you the past few days I didnt have any min. left. I love you and cant wait to talk to you.
Love you and Pooh always
Juice
P.S. Thanks for everything you do for me....
and for tonight....I feel his calming presence....and I am myself again......