Saturday, June 27, 2009

I am I said.....


You know those times....when you have a million and one thoughts running through your mind....all speeding at 100 mph.....if you don't...let me paint a picture


50, 3 year olds....telling you their entire life story....at the same time......yeah.....exactly.....


Maybe having a not so productive, overly exciting week....sans a 2mm weapon of mass destruction making it's way through my body.....has turned my mental self into overload....


"like...hello.....you've been like totally neglecting us"



What is a girl to do.....even my ever present sidekick...who listens to my endless chatter....has thrown in the towel....and is currently snuggled with meow meow....dreaming of chicken nuggets...the neighbors koi pond....and hitting dogs with plastic golf clubs.....



it's these times of day.....when Pooh's asleep.....the sun begins to slip behind Mrs. Pong's house....and I'm alone.....when the noise becomes louder....


and I realize just how much I miss Juice....and his calming influence....


I sometimes think....my chaotic state stems from me trying to be everything to everyone while he's gone....that I can handle it.....When he's home....I don't worry.....I allow myself to just be me....my dorky, forgetful, go with the flow....calm self.....



You know they say....(really who are they?.....) that God gives you what you need, when you need it....



I sat down tonight....after a long day of trying to have a successful yard sale....unsuccessfully....and the mindless chatter whirring away.....and the sound of one overweight border collie snoring under my chair.


I logged into my email....and recieved the one thing I needed so very badly......



Hey baby. I just tried to call you but no luck. Were about to head out so I will try and call you when we get back. The min. should reset. Im sorry I couldnt call you the past few days I didnt have any min. left. I love you and cant wait to talk to you.


Love you and Pooh always

Juice

P.S. Thanks for everything you do for me....




and for tonight....I feel his calming presence....and I am myself again......

15 comments:

Becky said...

What a difference a phone call can make:) Aww..

S Club Mama said...

Oh sweetie, I can't imagine how incredibly hard this is for you. I know that I feel Big A's presence missing even when he leaves for work in the morning. And at nap time, I sleep on his side of the bed. You are my hero; I know it takes just as much courage for the wives of military men (and husbands of the wives) for them to be away. I'll be praying that his time away slips by quickly until he can slip into your arms.

And thank you for the sweet comment on my blog. I can't bring myself to cut the curls off. I can't wait for him to be a big brother, though!

Alicia said...

i'm glad you got that email to brighten up your day...keep your head up! =)

Melissa said...

Thank you, thank you, thank you...reading this post just now was like you reading that email you SOO needed! I so appreciate your blog - I always look forward to your newest happenings.

You are an amzaing wife and mother, doing so much for your family while your husband is away. I do hope the time passes quickly for the two of you.

kel said...

that is so very sweet! It sounds like he knew what you needed to "hear".

Mammatalk said...

Hang in there. Lots of bloggy love to ya!

Michelle said...

Glad you heard from Juice when you needed it most!

Thanking of you! I know it must be hard.

Dorkys Ramos said...

So sweet! We usually get what we need just when we need it, like a nice recharge so we can pick ourselves up and continue walking. You're so strong :)

(army)Wife said...

This really hit home for me (well, except for the 50 three-year-olds :)). It's an awesome post! I love how just an email from the hubs can brighten a day and make everything good for the moment. I'm glad you heard from him and hopefully soon you'll get a phone call :)

Nerdy Jess said...

Awe, what a sweet email! Thanks for stopping bye, I appreciate it :)

Evolving Mommy Catherine said...

I feel all out of sorts when Luke is gone for work too, and he usually only leaves for a week or two so I can't really wrap my brain around how you must feel. Isn't it nice to know that you have found the person that brings true balance to your life, almost like ying and yang.

You are in my thoughts and I am always so impressed with how strong you are.

So Not Mom-a-licious said...

Oh girlie, I fell you! Somedays I think that I am doing such an awesome job all on my own. I'm just knocking things out left and right, got the Kid under control, my mind isn't a mess, I've got my A game going.
Then, it just takes starting the next day a little bit the wrong way, or on the wrong foot and then I feel like everything I was working so hard to keep up has just fallen down around me. Those days suck so fantastically. For me, those days seem to be when I want to talk to the hubs so badly, but there just isn't anytime.
But I have learned to just try everyday. That's all I can do. We do the best we can do and that really is good enough.
I hope this time (for both of us) passes quickly!

Michaela said...

AWWWW it's like he just knew! I know that you already know it, but you have a great guy there!

Momma Moe said...

Awww, so glad you got your rescue from Juice. What a sweet story!

Orange Juice said...

I can't imagine just how hard it is for you. I know every little thing helps.