Tuesday, August 11, 2009

The real life part of homecomings....




Yeah. sigh....smile.....


Juice is finally home....safe and sound....another 77 day deployment come and gone....no broken bones....a few stitches....1 mini mommy meltdown....and now our family is back together.



It is always such an almost euphoric experience the day my handsome....holy hotness of a husband steps off the plane....from driving 80 in a 65 to make sure I get there extra early....to waiting in the squadron's readiness room to get the word the plane is on approach...


There's the nervous chatter of all the spouses on the bus while driving out to the flight line....then the standing on the tarmac waiting to see them come down the stairs....I would say it almost makes the 77 days apart completely worth it.....almost



The last few days have been amazing as usual....the blissful period where it doesn't matter if I still don't make the bed....and I don't get a little miffed if he doesn't put the toilet seat down...



It was a conversation we had though the other night...where Juice said he feels he's missing out of so much of Pooh's life....It hurt...and made me feel almost a little guilty....here I am....able to be a stay at home mom...and spend all my time enjoying my son....at the expense of my husband...


I think he feels more regretful this time....because of the amount of changes Pooh has gone through since the spring. He went from his first few steps the week before Juice left....to running....saying more gibberish...though it's still gibberish...and just being more interactive...

and I do feel so bad.....really bad....because I'm not more upset about his time away....

Today Pooh had an emotional moment, when I left to run some errands...alone for the first time since May...when I returned, I could tell it was another blow to an already sort of fragile daddy ego....


I feel so grateful that my strong, capable, my personal hero of a husband wants to be an ever present part of the family.....but also am so proud of the sacrifices he makes everyday for us his family and his country....


it will all get better, I know.....


This is just the not so picture perfect part of homecomings....it's the real life part.....

11 comments:

MrsM said...

I think that many Daddies have guilt about missing out on the kids while they're working, even if they don't travel. I wish I had an end-all solution.

Sorry your Hubby is having a hard time; I hope he doesn't let it bother him too much and that he is still able to enjoy the time he spends with you guys.

John Deere Mom said...

I bet that is so hard for daddy. I am sure it will get easier. Glad he's home safe and sound!

Shannon said...

Sometimes, the "real part" of life kinda stinks...

Rachel said...

I know this doesn't even come close to deployment, but my hubby works very long and late hours at a start-up and sometimes doesn't see Noah for days at a time. For this reason, Noah seems to be super attatched to me, and frequntly cries when his dad comes home or tries to hold him. Poor hubby is very hurt by this. We talked about it a lot and Brian finally came to the conclusion that he is very thankful Noah has a "safety" blanket in his life (me), a constant sense of security and comfort. It is this thankfulness that he thinks about whenever Noah clings to my arms.

I know that isn't much and its hard to feel happy when he misses so much, but maybe it will help.

{april kennedy} said...

Oh that post, again, brought back so many memories. It was spot on. I had many the same homecomings. And the blissful little period afterwards. We said we were always in honeymoon stage because of deployments.

Dave missed 1 whole year of Kaia's life. All her firsts. He left for Korea when she was 6 months old and returned when she was 18 months. If I had to do it over again...I would have gone to Korea with him and set myself up in a little apartment. He knows how Juice feels. He missed so much too. BUT we survived and you guys will do OK too.

Thank you for your service. Thank you to your whole family...not just Juice. We know the sacrafices the whole family makes and it means the world to us that Juice is serving our Country and you are supporting him.

Love to you guys!

Michaela said...

First, I'm so happy for you that Juice is back at home! I'm so sorry that he has to miss out on so much of Pooh's life... I bet it's hard, not just for Juice but also for Pooh... hopefully it won't take too long until they're best buds again!!

The Redhead Riter said...

I'm happy he is home and you are happy. Tell him I said "Thank you" for all the hours that he dedicates to our country so that we all can be afforded the freedoms and lifestyle that we now live. Without wonderfully brave people like him who are willing to dedicate time away from their families, we would not have this great country we call our home. And "Thank you" for being willing to live alone without him so that he can be gone. I know it isn't easy. I was a single mother for many years and it is rough. I am very touched by your last couple postings and the love and gratitude you express in them. I can tell that you love him immensely and are very proud. I hope God blesses you both with his most abundant blessings.

Stacie's Madness said...

I can't imagine the guilt he must feel...{{hugs}} it can't be easy!

Michelle said...

I can only imagine how hard it is for you, Juice, and Pooh. I hope the readjustment period is over quickly.

The Mrs. said...

grats on surviving! its a huge accomplishment and the relief is always amazing.

ad65shorty said...

And thank YOU for your sacrifices, too!!! It's not just the ones out there fighting every day, it's the ones left behind that deserve a thanks, too! Your sacrifices are also great! So, thank you, too!

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